Friendship is a beautiful thing, right? But.. what about when it's not?
It's one of those relationships that can truly fuck you up for the rest of your life..
I hate how relatable it sounds.. the sheer number of people who
Have at some point in their life
Felt betrayed by a friend
Felt unappreciated by a friend
Felt like they gave too much of theirselves away for someone who they thought would do the same,
Only to never be able to feel whole again
How does one really fill that hole?
How do you stop yourself from booty dialing that one (ex) best friend at 3am when you're feeling down
Or just really need someone to talk to?
Do you stop watching that tv show they got you hooked on?
Or forget the lyrics to every song of the band you both loved and jammed to at every sleepover?
The matching tees
The way they take their coffee
The inside jokes
The darkest secrets
The first boy who broke her heart
The book she can never get enough of
To the first time you caught them lying
Your conversations got shorter
The hugs felt colder
I .. don't really know where I'm going with this..
But I'd just like to say I'm sorry for anyone who knows what I'm really trying to say.. y'all are precious and deserve the world!
P.S.
I know I might sound overly dramatic to some, so
Lemme just say I'm really happy for y'all.. happy that no one ever made you feel that way and I hope no one ever does!
Have a great day everyone💖
Friendship and closure
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Three AM thoughts 
friendship and closure. This one hits close to home.. A friend of 40 years. I honestly don’t know what happened. I’ve tried everything to regain friendship–infact I will send another friendship card today. I’ll let you know what hapipens…
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Oh wow.. 40 years! I realize I might be a little late but I’m still rooting for you both❣️ do let me know how it goes/went🙈
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You are not alone. I am alone and beginning to like it that way. I used to be the life of the party; now, I don’t go out. I had four best friends and a fiancé; everyone of them put a knife deep into my back. The place I live alone is my chrysalis. I will emerge as a butterfly.
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The first half pretty much sums up the story of my life.. while I was very much disappointed by a friend in particular.. I cannot imagine what you must’ve went through with your fiancé.. “I will emerge as a butterfly” exactly the kinda thought process I admire and am trying to manifest for myself.. that said.. thank you so much for sharing .. I know it’s not very easy to do.. even after being anonymous on this platform
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Thank you so much! With time and patience, we all emerge as butterflies. We do not know how much time we have, and patience requires much meditation (in my opinion and experience). I remember joshing my dad when he turned 50 that he was half a century old, yet, here I am, creeping up on that birthday. Funny thing is…I don’t feel old. And, yes, the fiancé experience almost left me for dead…literally and figuratively, but I am almost 30 years older now. Time does heal all wounds! Memories…not so much, but wounds…yes. Just a little advice from an older chick, to thine own self be true, but let others in for the ride of your life- Shakespeare (loosely). I just don’t want to see you go through what I went through; not trying to be Momma Bear or Yogi master on a mountain. If you ever want a review on a piece that I missed or any more none of my business advice, just put HELP on my site, and I will come a’runnin’.
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By saying “You are not alone” above, I believe we have all been through it. I didn’t mean some childish “you’re too young to know what alone means “ crap.
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Haha .. yeah no I got that part.. as much as I’d love to go back to the being too young phase.. sadly we haven’t achieved time travelling or my younger self would’ve received.. kept receiving infact lots of knocks in her head by her older self😂
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😂😂😂 Hey. Go easy on yourself. Keep writing. You are talented!!!
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Hey where have you been welcome back! I have been there too and it really hurts 😔 be safe 💜
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Hiii! You have no idea how much it means to me to be remembered like this.. I’m like skipping and sobbing at the same time..
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I was umm.. going through stuff in my personal life.. I had pretty much abandoned my blog and writing altogether.. it brought back memories I didn’t have the strength to deal with.. I’m now trying to get back to working on myself.. so y’all might see lot more random rambling posts again lol
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This is a relatable post, as many humans have experienced the ending of a friendship. You, and your raiders may enjoy this post Struggling to Trust https://reallifeofanmsw.com/2020/06/01/%f0%9f%9a%ab-struggling-to-trust/
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Oh hi! Thanks for the recommendation!
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